I'm still here.
What a whirlwind it's been, catching up with our life. I'm doing really well. I like my job. I like having a job. I like the people I work with. I like being a block from the Sound. I like hearing the accordion music play when I stop into the bakery for a cup of coffee. Things I don't like--spending so much time away from my family. Leaving my daughter crying in the morning. Pretty sure she bounces back more quickly than I do, but that doesn't really change the issue. The nature of our relationship has changed utterly. We have yet to establish something solid and natural in its place. I had anticipated a difficult beginning, and it was a bit gut wrenching. But NOW--now that she knows what's coming, now that she anticipates--our time together is electric with emotion. It's hard. It really, really hurts. I'm also a little bothered by how hard my husband is working. He has Jane all day, and works hard in the evenings. Essentially, I just really want us all to be really really happy.
In other news, I received a new order for some sweater gnomes, and that's exciting. I know to have balance in my life requires time in the studio, requires handwork. I think this will be a nice way to get into the swing of things again. And this evening I will be making a little doll for the baby of the woman I've replaced at work. They're at home together now. The little one is three months old. That's another thing I like--stepping in so a mama can be home with her infant. Feels full circle somehow.
I better get to it. Hopefully, I'll be back here soon.